2013

If I can make it 41 more minutes, I will have gone through the entire year of 2013 without cutting. Why does that make me want to do it? Why does the simple measure of time trigger me? Can one step backward undo an entire year and a half of progress and success? I tell the kids I work with they're worth more than they think, that they're stronger than they know, yet why can I not believe that about myself? I feel like a liar.  How can I keep them safe if, when I go home, I'm not sure that I can be safe? New Years has always sucked. At least for the past 7 years for sure. BUT, if I wait till after midnight, and do it then, 2014 will be entirely screwed. Bleh, sucks.