Dear Heart

Dear Heart,
Please open up again. Please heal all the holes left behind by him, and stitch the cuts created by losing her. Please tuck the bad memories and choices away, please let forgiveness flood the oceans of hurt created by past mistakes. Please let someone new take a piece, for now, and later a hold of my whole heart.  Please let someone in again, let me love again.  Please forgive but never forget those things in my past that have gotten me to where I am.  Please use my scars to remember that hearts heal even after immense pain.  Please give me back my voice, my laughter, myself. Help me let myself go through as much hurt as it takes to find happy. 
Dear Heart,
Please let go.

Getting over it

And I think I'm finally getting over it. Those first few days back, when everything reminded me of him. When everything reminded me of how great things were sometimes. Those days were hard. Those days really hurt. I remembered all of the times we were happy, the times we weren't, and the time after, when missing him took up all of my energy. But I'm done missing him. Someday, if he comes back, and wants to try, we'll see. But right now, I'm moving on. I'm getting through it, and there's nothing else I want more than to see both of us happy. I deserve someone who will do all the good things Sean used to do, but not any of the bad, and I guess if I'm going to be happy, I need to go looking for it.

"The Constitution only guarantees the American people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself. ~Benjamin Franklin"

HERE I GO!