Wonder

I wonder, honestly, whether life really can be a happily ever after. Does everyone find that person who they could ride off into the sunset with? Does every girl end up with her prince charming? Will I ever find, that one person, who will love me too much to actually walk away? I don't want to have to work to love someone. I don't want to have to try to be attracted to someone just because they're amazing as far as their personality. And I don't want to find someone I'm physically attracted to who doesn't have the personality I am looking for. I look, all the time, for someone for forever. I had it, I thought I had it at least. And I don't know whether to revert back to loving the one person I thought would never walk away from me, or to put myself out there and find someone else even though I feel like I have tried. I want another chance obviously to work on something I've already had, but I probably don't deserve it and it's definitely not what he wants. So I'm content being that friend. As long as I AM a friend I guess. I just wanna be loved, by friends, by family, by someone special, anything... Just wanna feel it. And I know I will. Whether I feel it from him or another man ever again.