Is this wrong?
Is it wrong of me to hold on so tight, when I know he is holding on to something else?
Is it wrong of me to wish that she didn't have such a hold on him?
Is it wrong of me to wonder if he is thinking of her when he stares off into space?
I don't know how to be this girl, I don't want to be second best.
Maybe time would have given us what we needed, maybe he would have moved on.
I don't want to think what almost happened was the reason we threw that space in the trash.
I want that space to be gone because he doesn't need it anymore.
I
laugh with him. I laugh and when I do I realize that I'm truly happy
when I'm around him. The problem is that after I laugh, and everything
gets quiet, I know that it's not entirely true yet. I want to be happy
WITH him. I'm emotionally attached to him, as a friend at least. But I
can't help but feel like he's still emotionally hers. Until he tells me
he's moved on from her, I can't completely relax when he's holding me.
Is he holding me and pretending that he is holding her? Is he kissing me
and pretending he's kissing her? Or is he holding me and kissing me
simply because he's trying to forget about her? The problem isn't that
he's holding me and kissing me, the problem isn't even that he's doing
those things thinking about her, the problem is that I don't KNOW if
that's the case. I don't KNOW if he's planning on being with me. I could
JUST be his rebound still, but since I don't know and I'm getting
attached, I'm scared.
So, is this all wrong? And if it
is wrong, how come when he wraps his arms around me and kisses my head,
how come it feels so right? How come he makes me feel so safe if this is
wrong?
If I get attached, I could get hurt. So, is this wrong?
