Sometimes you can see hurt in the distance, yet you walk right into it. Even if you can't see it, someone tells you it's right around the corner you still go around that corner blindly. Once you're in it, most of the time you feel like you're never going to stop hurting ever again. But if you just keep walking, you'll come to another corner, one where you'll turn around it and the hurt will be gone. At that point, you'll have traveled far away from the original hurt and you might actually be able to keep walking and move on.
This is my struggle. I know going into things that I am setting myself up to fail or setting myself up to get hurt. I keep letting things hurt me over and over again without doing anything to stop it. I used to put up walls in my heart to keep people out, to keep them from hurting me, and slowly I took down the walls. Now that they're gone, I seem to let people hurt me for no reason at all. Those walls are going back up. I'm done allowing myself to be vulnerable. I'm done feeling weak because I let myself get emotionally attached to emotionally unavailable people. It will happen, but I refuse to allow myself to feel like it is my fault or that I am weak because of it.
