Closure.

There was a part of my life where all I thought I needed was to be 'with' somebody. I know now that I can be perfectly happy just having close friends. I guess all I needed to get over him was the chance to ask my questions openly and honestly, and the chance to really say my goodbye helped too. I feel like I have real closure now. A sense of closure that I didn't have before. A sense that everything will be okay, for me and for him. I asked if he's with her now, he said yes. I asked if he loved her, he said he thinks so. Then I asked if he's happy, and he said for now. I hope that for now means forever, just like forever, meant for now when he said it to me. I hope that he knows he's in my heart always. I hope that he knows I will always look at the moon and think of him. And I hope that he's proud of me, for taking this closure, and letting it go through that purple sparkly sequin box without crying.... and I hope that it is the right thing to do to empty it...to start over. I hope this is the right thing, but for right now? I'm content, I'm happy, and I haven't been able to say that in a long time. So thanks Sean, for giving me this chance, and for giving me one last, real, goodbye.