Let Go

The hardest thing to do in life, is to let go of the one thing you love, just to see if it will come back to you. You hold on so tight for so long, and when you loosen your hold you fear the worst: that the love of your life will never come back. I may let go completely, but I pray he will come back and not forget me.

Cave In - Kree Woods

Stay, just a little bit longer.
Staring straight at me but your mind wanders,
i know you're thinking about her,
you always were.

could you wait, give me just a few more minutes
and maybe i can figure out a way to fix this.

cave in crumble all around me
don't try to keep your distance,
colapse and let go,
give in, here is my solution
living in the ruins,
is all that i know
cave in to me
cave in to me

i need you to acknowledge
that there was at least a glimpse of right
in our wrongness

it felt so normal at times
and i swear i'll be fine
with the best that you can give me
consider the years that you've logged in
as i stand here and atone for what i did

cave in
crumble all around me
don't try to keep your distance,
collapse and let go
give in
here is my solution
living in the ruins
is all that i know
cave in to me

sure she is stable with her stone foundation
secure in herself such an easy decision
though i so quickly fall to pieces
collecting broken things has always been your weakness
cave in crumble all around me
don't try to keep your distance
collapse and let go
give in here is my solution
living in the ruins
is all that we know
cave in to me
cave in to me

Be Still - The Fray

If you forget the way to go
And lose where you came from
If no one is standing beside you
Be still and know I am

two hours later....

I spent two hours writing something I won't even post. I won't settle, I won't waste my time, but I will wait if it's the right one.

Pink - Perfect

Pretty pretty please,
Don't you ever ever feel,
Like you're less than,
Less than perfect.
Pretty pretty please,
If you ever ever feel,
Like you're nothin,
You are perfect to me.

Fight With Yourself

One would think a fight with yourself would be the most evenly matched fight in the world. That's just not the case. I'd rather fight anyone than myself. I'm my own worst enemy, an enemy I sometimes can't beat. I bring myself lower than anybody else ever could. I let myself go there. I lose to myself, and in doing so, I never really win.

I WILL

I will NEVER change who I am for someone else.
I will NEVER pretend to be someone I'm not.
I will NEVER settle for less than I want or deserve.
I will NEVER forget how I've gotten to where I am.
I will NEVER stop laughing.
I will NEVER quit doing what makes me happy.
I will NEVER deny someone a second chance.
I will ALWAYS forgive, and I will ALWAYS love with all that I am.

Dear Purple Sparkly Sequin Box

CONQUERED!!  I know that it has been 3 years... And I should have done this sooner, but I finally conquered that purple sparkly sequin box. The box is empty, but I am not, I feel fantastic, and that box is no longer so incredibly sad.

I don't like being caught off guard. I don't like feeling like I have to pretend something doesn't affect me. I don't like wanting to cry and having to physically force myself to smile. I don't like knowing the truth sometimes. Sometimes the dark is a better place to be because then you don't know the things that can hurt you... I will move on. I just hope I didn't miss out on something amazing...

The truth is, you don't really ever fall out of love with someone, you just squash that voice inside you that brings up their name every minute until you only think about them when you allow yourself to forget why you were squashing it in the first place...

I'll Move On

I'll move on baby just like you, when the desert floods and the grass turns blue. When the sailing ship don't need her moon, it'll break my heart but I'll get through, someday when I stop loving you.

I bet all I had on a thing called love, I guess in the end it wasn't enough. And it's hard to watch you leave right now, I'm gonna have to learn to let you go somehow. Somehow...

 I'll move on baby just like you, when the desert floods and the grass turns blue. When the sailing ship don't need her moon, it'll break my heart but I'll get through, someday when I stop loving you.

-"Someday When I Stop Loving You" --Carrie Underwood